I dont believe you

I dont believe you ...she said ...

and i had no words for it ...

i was waiting for that second chance...

it was hard and truely it wasnt me ...

but the angel that she was ....

i knew she wont do that to me...

are you there ..she cried at the top of her voice ...

I didnt replied ...

let me see you ..she said again...

I am there... always ...i said ..coming in front of her

she grabbed me by my shirt ....

plz stay here ..till i go to sleep...i am afraid ...she said..

i waited by her side , the whole night ...

and then came the dawn ...

to leave her ...

to leave her in a lurch...

to move in my own direction ...

bye...i said ..

she was still sleeping..

...she was still feeling

...feeling the warmth of having me by her side...

I touched my feet down on the floor ...

moved myself up from the sweet tender love to the hard and real world ...

i wasnt sure how she could handle it ...

but there was no other option ...

...no other option but to end it ...

Dawn

i could feel the mist in the air ...

moving around ,with my small steps..

..not knowing where i am going ...

i knew its the end...

i knew that the time has come....

time for change ....

To look at the sun rising ...

to swim in the sea...

to remove one mask and to put on another ...

to show the world one more face of mine...

i dnt knw whether this would be evil or good....

bt surely the time has come ....

to decide between heaven and hell...

to decide between love and hatred ...

to decide the path to the destiny you never picked ....

running towards the sea ..with all the clothes removed ....

running for the sake of running...without thinking ...


the time has come ..my dear ...

to think our lives on different terms ...

to change the way we have been thinking ....


Th time has come certainly

......the time for "dawn".

Last moments

There was a glow on her face even when she was dying ...

There was no remorse ...

but the candles blew off ...

and the flowers stopped blooming...

and the wind stopped flowing...

I screwd up ..she said...still at the deathbed ...

i am sorry she said ..with a drop of tear in her eyes..

and then she said with a smile on her lips ....i am not afraid ....

to go ..to go beyond ...

i was there ..looking at her ..looking at her face ...

stunned ...thinking how can she smile ...

at the face of death...

she gave me a piece of paper...

you wont understand ..she said..probably knowing what i was thinking...

i was holding her in my arms ...

but not a drop of tear came from my eyes ...

i dont know why ..

why her death was making me tougher...

and then i saw her close her eyes ...

bidding a last goodbye....

to me and to the rest of the world...

and there came the tears that i was trying to hold ...

falling on her beautiful face ...

hoping she would open her eyes and smile through those lovely lips...

but she never did ...

still holding her ...i felt her for the last time..

and then i moved away from her ...

still looking at her ...

i felt like throwing up...

why her..i asked ...

there was no reply...

and then i saw her crumbled piece of paper still in my hands...

i opened it slowly not knowing what it was ...

Smile Please ...it said

And i did just that...

I am Free

I looked up to the sky hoping something will happen...

It wanted it badly...

the grace of you ,

the grace of you....

to make me feel like a home...

to feel ur hug ....

to cry on your shoulder ...

not caring whether someone is seeing me or not ...

removing all the attitude i possess...

forgetting all the worries that i have got ...

making me feel like a child again ..

nothing is important any more ...

make me free ...

free from all that you have given me ...

and then i asked am i ??...

and the answer was prompt with the grace....the love ...
...

"Yes You Are"

Eternity

I was searching for eternity ...

i was searching for god..

and then she came, like a messenger of god ...

to revive me ...

of my existence...

she made me close my eyes ...

and with those beautiful lips ..she touched my eyes ...

the way only she could...

she came close to me ...

and then she whispered ...

come back to life ..

for now i am here ...

to get you close to god ....

come now ...or there wont be anything...

its just the way it should be ...

u dont need to search for eternity ..

for eternity is here ...with me

I wasnt sure

i wasnt sure about what angel meant...

till the time i saw you ...

i wasnt sure what love is ...

till the time i started feeling for u ...

i wasnt sure what trust means ...

till the time i started believing in you...

i wasnt sure what happiness is...

till the time u made me a bundle of joy...

i wasnt sure what touch is ...

until you touched me the way you did...

i wasnt sure what death is ...

till the time you fell to one ...

i wasnt sure what life is ...

till the time you promised me you would be one ...



This is what happens ....

This is what happens...

and if anyone asks me ..

what i have got the best ...

i will tell, it was You.

Right now

Right now ...

Right now ...

i feel the way i should have never felt ...

the way you thought me to be ...

i am not afraid ...

i am blessed instead ...

to have you in my life...

and then to move away as u came ...

to see u cry ....

to see myself in the mirror...worthless...pined down to something....

to make way for the other ....

a new life ...

a new beginning ...

and may be ....

a new way to love each other ...

Thats the way it is

Thats what probably people try to be ...

they try to be someone that they are not even an iota of what they actually are ...

and then they fail ...

but they still try...

ohh ya ..try and try till u succeed ...haha..

and they fail again ...

people say y dont u quit ...

but they have some kinda passion...

passion of failing ...

passion of loosing again and again ...ha

and they try again ...this time with a new vigour ...

why the hell do they try again ...haha..just to fail again ..??

and seriously they fail again ...

this time they try again ..this time with hope ...

hoping this time they wont fail ...

but they still fail ...ha..

problem is they dont look at the big picture ...

problem is they are stuck in a small issue when actually that issue is secondary to the whole big problem ..

..its best to loose now..

because there's something waiting there that you are meant to succeed at ...


but the biggest problem is ...

They never realize !!

So that's the way it is ......and it will be!!

The Last Seven Days

The last seven days....

ha..the last seven days...

i am laughing at myself ...

i am laughing at you too...

c'mon , this is me ....

ohh c'mon sweety...

u knw me ...

the last seven days ...

u have become more bubbly ...

but you say my energy levels have gone down ...

the last seven days you are ignoring me...

but you say i have been avoiding you...

the last seven days your looks have changed...

but you say i am looking different ...

the last seven days you are hanging out with other guy..

but you say ..i am getting cosy with other girl...

the last seven days nothings changed baby....

the only thng that has changed is you ...

but i know you will still say that i have changed.